Choices

This chaos in my head,
wont let me rest.
It drives me on the edge of madness
It sinks me into the bottomless sea of choices
I ponder, think, wonder
Feeling restless and paranoid
This restless thinking puts me in apathy
Empty space of nothingness
Where I worry of things meaningless
Then get so tired, yet can not get sleep
I stare at the ceiling, cant move, cant eat, cant feel.
There are only two things can rid me of this chaos,
Death or drugs, which would be your choice?